I don wanna die, but im tired of living
Don want ma heart to stop beatin but im tired of breathing
Im tired but im too strong to be suicidal
I have to address this life of mine and free ‘me’ from this cycle.
Is this life of mine coincidental
If so is my spirit path still on schedule
I never will be given a heavier burden than I can handle
Can ,I may I, approach my life from a different angle
Who am I to end a life that was not begun by me
But life is hard and man is an evil with no empathy
Knees bent hands together, praying to the divine
Lord im trying to be strong, permission to live just one more time
Life is challenging
Does that mean death is a rewarding ending?
Living from moment to moment alive from day to day
How do I stop existing and start living
When my dreams seem but a life time away
If tomorrow is indeed a result of what you plan today
Tragic moments have some livin reckless
While it remain clear that physical life is not endless
If indeed life is a test for my spirit in physical form
When my physical has gone
will I and I carry on?
Does it matter wich righteous path I chose
If their all for the good opposing evil views
I may question this life but I still have to live it
And clearly life is a gift
Indeed I may die without ever knowing the truth
Wheter it’s a spiritual bond or living for God in my youth.
But Things change and times go by
Some accept and adapt some change deny
Viewing life with a fresh mind and clear eye
I see the only constant in my life is you and i
I don’t wanna live because I cant live dying
I don’t wanna die because I cant die living
Living
Dying
Living dying dying living….
Alone on this corner questioning delving deep bout life
Meaning, purpose, essence for an understanding I strife
Seven to four, I sustain life till mine is no more
Systematically I exist unaware of what im living for
Searching for the dividing line between sin and manly evil
Coming from whence I came has got me calling others devil
At times wishin I hadn’t stumbled upon the truth
Perhaps id have had more fun in my youth
But then isn’t that being ignorant
Within a world where evil runs rampant
Selfish acts require maintenance so they don’t back fire
I and I don’t have energy to plot and conspire
Proggrammed within my upbringing only to contract a virus called reality
My mental has crashed, I no longer entertain pretence over tea.
For a mind with no embedded programmes I strife
A mental fresh and clear as a new born babies
Feeling better about life approaching the world with inner peace
But things change and times go by
Some accept and adapt, some change deny
Viewing things with a fresh mind and clear eye
I see the only constant in my life is you and I
Woke up this morning with a yawn
E Yo I don wanna carry on
But with belief in god im strong
God willing I carry on
I cant live as the devils pawn
Wit truth in ma belief im strong
The pain the stress surving the storm
Preparing for a new dawn
Between tradition and religion no longer torn.
But things change and times go by
Some accept and adapt, some change deny
Viewing things with a fresh mind and clear eye
I see the only constant in my life is you and I
FUCK……